Last day of the year. AND I am laid up in bed with fever and a nagging cough that makes me feel like a 100 year old woman.
One of the advantages of being ill is that you get to spend a lot of time with yourself. And that is what I have been doing. And today being New Year's eve the time is nothing short of perfect.
It has been an eventful year for me. A year when I finally knew what is it that I wanted to do with my life. A year that brought me answers to many unanswered questions. A year that's crystalised in me the belief that I am a powerful being, I am good and I am the creator of my own experience and that I am responsible and in complete control of my own life.
I very often photograph my shadow -it is a strange quirk of mine. And I always hated the result. The shadow was ugly, squat, horrible and it was all that it shouldn't be. It always evoked in me immense negative feelings. And for some strange reason, it invariably got translated into a reflection of myself -of what I was feeling or where I was at that point in time in my life. No matter how hard I tried to convince myself it is just a shadow of myself and not an x-ray of my soul, my ugly shadow-nee-innerself bothered me.
This image of my shadow is going to be one of the important images in my life, for I feel that this is one image that I will be going back to time and again in the future, for validation.
Because for the first time I felt good about my shadow. I liked my shadow. Tall (well, not in the literal sense) and confident, composed and calm, doing what I love doing and knowing that I am doing it well.....the shadow seemed happy, wholesome, at peace with itself and with the world around it. The shadow seemed to tell, well I am ready for the ride and I am going to enjoy every bit of it. Above all the shadow seemed to be aware of NOW.
Yup, I like my shadow. And as usual it's seems like a reflection of who I am at this moment in time. And I like who I am right now.
Here's to good tidings and awareness in the coming year!
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